Author: Amy Zhang.
Published: September 9th 2014 by Greenwillow books.
Sort: Stand-alone, contemporary.
On the day Liz Emerson tries to die, they had reviewed Newton’s laws of motion in physics class. Then, after school, she put them into practice by running her Mercedes off the road. Why? Why did Liz Emerson decide that the world would be better off without her? Why did she give up? Vividly told by an unexpected and surprising narrator, this heartbreaking and nonlinear novel pieces together the short and devastating life of Meridian High’s most popular junior girl. Mass, acceleration, momentum, force—Liz didn’t understand it in physics, and even as her Mercedes hurtles toward the tree, she doesn’t understand it now. How do we impact one another? How do our actions reverberate? What does it mean to be a friend? To love someone? To be a daughter? Or a mother? Is life truly more than cause and effect?
Slowly we unravel Liz story and why she decided to take such a big decision. Her mother is always on the road for her job, her father passed away and Liz is very unhappy with herself. Addicted to booze, she likes to go from party to party in the hope to forget everything around her. She is popular because of her snarky comments, her harsh behavior and overall meanness to others; Liz is a bully, but she regrets it. She is stuck in her role and that is when her plan begins to shape.
Liz.. what can I say. I felt sorry for her, but at the same time it was so hard to understand her. I have low tolerance for bullies and it didn’t feel to me like she had no other choice. I think she was too broken to change herself, but there were times I wanted to slap her for the hurtful things she did. It was sometimes difficult for me to continue and she is not a likable person. Honestly, most of the times she is just a big jerk, but I wanted to see her change. I was willing to give her a second shot, because it’s obvious from her suicide that she was very unhappy.
Once, Liz found comfort in me. Once, she found it in holding my hand and dreaming until our dreams came true. Once, she found it in simply being alive. Eventually, she could no longer find comfort in anything. By the end, she was just another girl stuffed full of forgotten dreams, until she crashed her car and she wasn’t even that.
The writing-style is the main aspect that made me finish this book. There was something gripping about it and I read this book in one sitting. I don’t think I would have picked it up if I had put it down, but it’s good I finished it, because I was pleased with the ending. I also liked the narrator of this book. It’s not hard to guess who is telling the story, but it was nicely done and very effective.
I didn’t enjoy the story that much, I tolerated it.. But based on a lot of ratings on Goodreads, this is ac case of 'it's me, not you.'